Sick at the holidays

I've been feeling ill for quite some time now. Tonight I am in a lot of pain and feeling physically uncomfortable. I know I could use a couple of steroid shots in my back to help with all the pain but it's the holidays and I don't know when I could get it to see Dr. Jenks. I'll have to call and see when they are back in the office. The fatigue I'm dealing with is so extreme. It's hard to do anything. I had 2 ER visits in 10 days time. I don't feel a whole lot better after the visits. I don't feel like they are treating me for what is going on really. The breathing treatment they gave me did help though. The holidays are a terrible time to be sick. And it doesn't help that David has the duty pager until after Christmas. He's done his best though to take care of me. I don't know what I would do without him. Driving has been difficult so he's been bringing me everywhere. I can't wait to get back in to see Shellie and follow up with her. I need to talk to her about a genetic cancer (CLL) that runs in my family. I'm sure I don't have it because nothing is showing up on my labs but I want to be sure that it's not what is causing the fatigue. I think I'm going to go to bed in just a little bit. I'm not comfortable laying down for long periods of time but it's better than sitter here and feeling so terrible. The pain is overwhelming. Somehow I have to get this under control. The steroid shots usually help make me feel better overall so I may go that route. I just don't want the steroids to make the breathing problem worse.

Who would have thought that my life would have turned out to be like this. This is horrible. Somehow I have to get to the store or have someone go for me. I don't know how I'm going to make a Christmas meal. I wish someone could provide one for us. I'll do what I can but I have trouble just brushing my teeth so I'm not sure how I'm going to accomplish more than that right now. I'm doing all I can, which isn't much.

Anyway, I just needed somewhere to post about this and facebook didn't seem like the place tonight. People on there have been supportive but I have too much to say tonight. It will get better eventually. Following up with Shellie (my PA) will be key to feeling better. Wish me luck.