Dinner sucks!

Dinner is done. It wasn't very healthy - hot dogs on a plain bagel. I have to do better for dinner. I just don't like cooking very much and now that meat doesn't appeal to me it's hard to figure out what I want to eat. I had a few raw baby carrots to get something healthy in there. Oh woe is me. I've got to get this figured out. Maybe I could do a second protein smoothie for dinner. That would be the easy thing to do. I could make David a dinner and have a smoothie for myself. I wish I didn't have to think about food. It frustrates me. Honestly, I wish I didn't have to worry about making dinner for David right now. I just don't like eating something that is heavy on my stomach this late in the day. I'm going to have to give this some thought.

I'm looking forward to my walk in the morning. I'm going to get out there earlier than I did today so it won't be quite so hot. I'm going to walk the Grandview trail (the easy one). I'm sure the views will be spectacular.

Awesome walk today in Palmer Park

I got up this morning and took my meds and made my protein smoothie. I drank about 1/4 of it and saved the rest for after my walk. Then I went up to Palmer Park, the Mesa Trail and walked. I walked at least a mile, probably more like a mile and a half. It felt really good. There were a few slight inclines that gave me a work out. There were lots of dogs on the trail today. One of them ran up to me and barked. That was a little scary. But overall the dogs were well behaved. I didn't really know which trail to take so I just meandered around. I kept up a good pace today. I really felt like I got a workout. My back seems to be doing okay. I may be sore later though.

On most of the trail the sun was beating down on me. It got hot. I chewed a piece of gum so I wouldn't get dry mouth and I brough a bottle of water. Doing both of those things helped me to walk longer. Next time I might wear my hat to keep the sun off my head and face. My face was very red after I finished walking. The drive home was nice. There is a cool breeze today. When I got home I finished up my protein smoothie. It was delicious. I probably should have made more though. I'll make more of it tomorrow. After I had my smoothie I changed into comfy clothes. I'll take a shower later. I'm feeling pretty tired right now, more from the meds than from the walk.

I think I'll hike in Palmer Park again tomorrow but I'll take a different trail. The Grandview Trail is about 1.3 miles. I may try to wak that tomorrow. It's an out and back. If I get too sore or tired I can always just turn around and go back. I think I can push myself though to do the whole out and back. I'd like to get there earlier before the sun becomes so much of an issue. I'll try to get there at 7am tomorrow. I'm really looking forward to walking again.

I have both doors open in the house and a nice breeze is coming in. It's nice to relax after actually doing something. I need to plan something for dinner tonight. Maybe I'll do the stir fry chicken tonight. I will look through the cabinets and see what I have for meals. I think I'll do an inventory again and post it on the fridge. That really helped me the last time I did it.

I'm feeling impatient about waiting on the weight loss. I want to see it happening today. I know I didn't get into this overnight and I won't get out of it overnight either.I'm really going to have to practice patience with the weight loss. My body is so used to keeping it's fat stores because I wasn't feeding it as often as I should have and I definitely wasn't feeding it healthy stuff. I'm not going to weight myself though. I want to feel the weight loss not just look at a number.

I can't believe I walked as far as I did today. I'm very happy with the progress I am making.

Middle of the night nonsense ;)

So, it's 1am and I'm up. This is the first night that I've been up that I thought about food. I'm not going to eat in the middle of the night. That's a bad habit to start. So I won't.

I went to bed thinking about what my day would be like today. I was thinking about my morning walk. I'm going to go up to Palmer Park and walk the Mesa Trail. Depending on how I feel I might expand the walk from what we did yesterday. I want to feel like I've had a workout when I'm done. I am a little nervous about walking alone even though I used to walk and hike alone all the time. I'll be okay. Definitely will watch out for rattlesnakes.

I'm trying to decide on whether I should have my protein shake before or after walking. I'll have to do some research on that. And I'll bring a bottle of water with me on the walk. By this weekend we'll have our Camel Packs and that will make bringing water easier and much more convenient. I really need to drink more water. I know I'm dehydrated to some extent because I barely drink water during the day. I've got to start slogging down the water at all times.

I thought hard on what this journey means to me. It's a long and serious undertaking. When I think that it will take about a year to get myself back in shape, I get nervous. Can I stay committed? Will I actually see results at some point? It's hard to even imagine. I'm hoping that this blog will keep me going throughout the process. I want to be the skinny girl that I once was. I know that at my age things will go a little slower but I still think it can be done.

I've been feeling restless the last couple of nights. I feel like my sleep is fitful. I'm not sure what that's about. Maybe it's because I'm actually walking again. I have pent up energy that needs to be disbursed. Heck, I don't know what I'm saying. It's after 1am and I should be back in bed. I don't feel like going to bed though. Maybe I'll just stay up for a while and head to bed when I'm feeling more tired. Allergies are effecting me tonight. I need to go take some Benadryl. That will help me to sleep.

Okay, off to take my Benadryl and research whether it's better to have the protein smoothie before or after the walk.