Middle of the night nonsense ;)

So, it's 1am and I'm up. This is the first night that I've been up that I thought about food. I'm not going to eat in the middle of the night. That's a bad habit to start. So I won't.

I went to bed thinking about what my day would be like today. I was thinking about my morning walk. I'm going to go up to Palmer Park and walk the Mesa Trail. Depending on how I feel I might expand the walk from what we did yesterday. I want to feel like I've had a workout when I'm done. I am a little nervous about walking alone even though I used to walk and hike alone all the time. I'll be okay. Definitely will watch out for rattlesnakes.

I'm trying to decide on whether I should have my protein shake before or after walking. I'll have to do some research on that. And I'll bring a bottle of water with me on the walk. By this weekend we'll have our Camel Packs and that will make bringing water easier and much more convenient. I really need to drink more water. I know I'm dehydrated to some extent because I barely drink water during the day. I've got to start slogging down the water at all times.

I thought hard on what this journey means to me. It's a long and serious undertaking. When I think that it will take about a year to get myself back in shape, I get nervous. Can I stay committed? Will I actually see results at some point? It's hard to even imagine. I'm hoping that this blog will keep me going throughout the process. I want to be the skinny girl that I once was. I know that at my age things will go a little slower but I still think it can be done.

I've been feeling restless the last couple of nights. I feel like my sleep is fitful. I'm not sure what that's about. Maybe it's because I'm actually walking again. I have pent up energy that needs to be disbursed. Heck, I don't know what I'm saying. It's after 1am and I should be back in bed. I don't feel like going to bed though. Maybe I'll just stay up for a while and head to bed when I'm feeling more tired. Allergies are effecting me tonight. I need to go take some Benadryl. That will help me to sleep.

Okay, off to take my Benadryl and research whether it's better to have the protein smoothie before or after the walk.