Continuation

It's 3:30am and I'm up. My knee doesn't hurt quite as much now that's I've rested it for a few hours. That's hopeful. I sure don't want a knee problem to get in the way of my walking.

I can't remember what I was going to blog about regarding the Cripple Creek trip. Guess I'll have to go back and look at the entry and remind myself.

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So, as I was saying in the other post, I was doing my best to let me be my reference point. When I did that the conversation got a lot more interesting. I realized that I do have ideas and opinions of my own. ;)

I got home at about 5:30pm and David was in bed taking a nap. As soon as I hit the house the stress came back which meant that the eating came back too. I had a hot dog for dinner and an ice cream for dessert. Around 8:30pm David asked if I wanted to go for a drive. We went to the CU and then to Sonic where I had another ice cream. I didn't feel too good after eating it. I should have said 'no' when David asked me to go there. Why do I have such a hard time saying 'no' to him? I think that part of the reason why I give in is because he's trying to do something to make me happy (he thinks) and I don't want to take that joy away from him. Realistically though I know that he just wants an ice cream and it's more comfortable for him if I participate in the 'activity' by getting an icr cream too. Not healthy behavior.

So I'm thinking that my walking is necessary just to keep me from gaining more weight. Losing the weight isn't going to happen if I keep eating the junk food. I've got to make a commitment to eating healthy foods and saying 'no' to junk food. I don't know how much I weigh but I know it's a lot. I'm afraid that I may have gained weight by eating all the junk food lately. But at least I am walking and I have cut out soda. Those are two very important pieces of this puzzle.

I am making progress. I need to remind myself of that. It may be baby steps but at least I'm heading in the right direction. Overall I feel pretty good about yesterday because I got myself out of the house and didn't eat snacks all day long like I did the day before. Thankfully there is only one package of snacks left (yes, I ate most of the other stuff that my sister sent). If she offers again to send a 'care package' I need to tell her not to send snacks. I was doing the same thing with her that I do with David - I was saying 'yes' so I wouldn't hurt her feelings or disappoint her. But it did hurt me and I need to stop doing that to myself.

I should go back to bed. We have company coming in the morning and I need to get up early to get a walk in. Hopefully my knee will hold out.