I still haven't been out walking. Not only is my knee hurting back now my hamstring area is hurting too. I'm thinking that it's getting worse because I'm not walking. So, tomorrow I'll get out there and walk and see what happens. My eating has been atrocious the last week. I definitely need to do something about that. Still haven't had a soda though. I think I've been eating poorly because I am stressed and sad. I am sad about giving up my dogs. I miss all of them. I really regret giving them up. I talked to David and told him I'd like to think about getting another dog, a therapy dog. I'm still not quite sure how I feel about getting another dog so I'm holding off on making any decisions. I know I'm lonely being home all day by myself and I feel like I have no reason to even get up each day. I don't know if those are good reasons to get a dog though. Mostly I just want one. So I'm stressed thinking about this again and I'm eating constantly (or what seems to be constantly) and I'm mostly eating junk. Not a good place to be.
Today I slept the whole day away. I didn't get up finally until 1:30pm. I would wake up every few hours and get something to eat but then I'd just go back to bed again. I feel like I have no purpose so what's the point in being up. Once I did get up I did some stuff around the house. That made me feel better. I wish I could feel better though even when I'm not doing something.
I thought about walking this afternoon but changed my mind when I saw the temperature - 90 degrees! Way too hot for me to go walking. I can just be patient and go up to Palmer Park in the morning. I like it up there that time of day. I wish I could get myself to go walking in the evenings, just when the sun is going down and it's cooling off but it's hard for me to get out there that time of day. So, early in the morning is going to have to be my walk time until it starts cooling down during the day.
I don't look forward to winter coming. I worry so much about driving in bad weather. The road up to Palmer Park is steep and curvy so I'd be afraid to drive up there in bad weather. I could just walk around the neighborhood on those days when the roads aren't so good.
One good thing that sleeping all day did for me is that my leg doesn't hurt nearly as much as it did last night. I really think it's hurting because I'm NOT walking. Going for a walk would stretch it out and probably make it feel better so I'll make an attempt tomorrow morning. I miss walking and want to get back to it.
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