Anxiety, oh, anxiety!

It just won't let up completely today. I just talked to Lynn, thinking that would help but it didn't. I know I can always call her back later if I need to. She's good about letting me talk when I need to. I'm stressing out about having to drive downtown on Monday to see Dr. Fouss and then having to pick up Bayou after my appointment. It's a lot of driving. I found this series on anxiety on Netflix and started watching it the other night. It's been a little helpful. One woman said something that really  has stuck with me. She said that she just has to do stuff even if she feels anxious, that's it's okay to feel the anxiety but it's not okay to stop doing stuff because she feels anxious. I understand that completely. I've been pushing myself to drive even though it makes me feel so anxious because I don't want to give up or give in to the anxiety. I'd become a recluse and Bayou would need to be re-homed if I stopped driving. I've got to fight this until I can get some medication that will help this anxiety go away. I want my life back. I want to be able to go to WW meetings again. I want to drive without feeling like it's the end of the world. I try a lot of positive self talk but it doesn't feel like it helps much. I need to find something that mitigates this feeling of anxiety. I'm sure if Dr. Fouss puts me on some medication I'll feel better by the end of the month. I know this just is a chemical thing and can be fixed with medication. I know I can feel better at some point. I'm going to take some Xanax tonight to help me feel better. I know I can only take it short term but until I have a longer lasting medication to help me the Xanax is the way to go.