David got home about an hour ago. I've been thinking since then about what he had for lunch. His boss bought the work crew pizza. Yes, pizza. And David ate some. I'm obviously not feeling good about that. I know it's really not my business what he eats but I thought we were trying to make changes. It makes it harder for me knowing he's having pizza and subs for lunches. I know I just shouldn't care and do what's best for me but I guess I'm not at that point yet. I'm not mad at him, just a tad miffed. I know I'm doing what I need to do though and he's doing what he needs to do. I guess I can understand how hard it would be to be around everyone eating pizza and not joining in. Eating is a social thing these days. I think I would have done the same thing. Maybe it's lucky for me that I'm doing this and spend most of my time at home. Just being out today made me think of eating all kinds of stuff that I don't have at home right now. Bread is at the top of that list. I nice, fresh piece of Italian bread would be really good but I just don't want to give in just a week or so into this. I can do this no matter what anybody else is doing. I guess I just felt let down. David was the one who wanted me to watch "Fat, Sick & Nearly Dead". He wanted me to get the juicer. He wanted to change the way we eat. Then he eats pizza while I'm having a juice and a lettuce wrap. I guess it makes me feel like I'm stupid for continuing this. I know I'm not but it's there in the back of my mind. I'm not going to let this get to me though. I'll continue doing what is right for me. It won't be easy but I'll keep on doing it.
I've been thinking of that book Dr. Fouss suggested I read, "Wheat Belly". I think I'll read it again and see what the difference is from what I'm doing now. I remember when I read it I thought that it would be impossible to give up all the stuff that it talked about but now I've basically done it so I think I should read it again. It will be an encouragement to me to remind myself why I'm doing this.
Time to wake David up from his nap and stop by the bookshelf and get "Wheat Belly".
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