Still ill

I'm eating poorly, I'm not sleeping well and I'm tired and sore. I've been doing a lot of research and lab results organizing which isn't really helping me right now. I'm still waiting on test results from the 18th. It could be another week before I hear anything so I have to be patient. But I don't want to be patient. I want answers now. I'm not doing myself any favors by the way I'm eating so I've gained back all the weight I lost. I need to get back to juicing and a plant based diet but I'm so fatigued that  thinking of doing that exhausts me even more. I'm going to do it though, whether I like it or not. It's what is best for me. Not eating or eating just junk isn't good. In fact, it's terrible. I can feel the poisons I'm putting in my body. I need to get good fruits and veggies and nuts and seeds in my body again. Tonight I feel bloated and sick to my stomach. That's what I get for going off the food plan I was on. I'm not drinking any water either and that never helps. I'm very dehydrated. I can feel it in my feet of all places. They are cramping up. I'd like to go to the store tomorrow but may not make it until Friday. I have to get a shower, which right now exhausts me, and I have a 15 phone conference with a doctor in California at 10:30am. I've been getting up later because I feel bad again and it's going to be hot tomorrow so going out later in the morning won't work. I may just have to do it though because Bayou needs dog food. She'll be out by afternoon time tomorrow. And it's almost 1am and I just took my meds about a half hour ago so I won't be sleepy for probably another half hour. I'm just really treating myself poorly right now. I feel like I shouldn't ask anyone for help because I'm not willing to help myself. I have to be willing to make changes first. No one can do anything for me if I'm not going to jump in first. I'm getting more depressed with each passing day. And I know it's all due to the poor eating habits I'm back into. I better try to go to bed. I'm just depressing myself even more. Goodnight.