Saturday recap

It's about 3am Sunday morning. I always seem to be up this time of night. I did go walking Saturday morning up on the Mesa Trail. I got up there later than usual but it hadn't got hot yet. That is until the 2nd half of my walk when the sun was beating down on me. I couldn't have imagined walking in the middle of the day when it felt so hot that early in the day. It was a good walk though. My back was bothering me a little bit but not enough to make me stop or turn around and head back. I was able to do the loop in about 35-40 minutes. I was moving along so well that it didn't even occur to me to take a picture while I was out there so I took a picture of my shoes when I got home. lol


After my walk I showered and then went to get a haircut. I had my hair cut short so it wouldn't feel so hot while I'm walking. Around 11am David and I went out for a ride. It turned into a junk fest for me - peanuts, M&M's, lemonade, chocolates and taffy. And to round it all out I had french fries for dinner. I couldn't stand the thought of eating meat yesterday but I seemed oblivious to all the junk I was eating. I know it was all emotional eating. I was feeling like there was no point in trying to eat well when we kept stopping at places to get snacks. It was my choice to indulge but I wouldn't have stopped myself and could have then avoided the junk.

My plan for Sunday morning is to go for a walk, come home and clean out the fridge and then make a list for shopping. After I've cooled down enough from my walk I'll head over to the store and pick up some groceries. I'm craving fruits and vegetables. I'm going to plan some dinners too so I'm ready to eat healthy this week.

I'm feeling kind of sick because of all the junk I ate yesterday. I thought I had learned my lesson but apparently I have not. When I am experiencing emotions my tendency is to eat to relieve them. I've got to work on finding something else to do that will help me to feel better, that is positive, rather than eating food. I know I need to work on tolerating the emotions first of all. I don't need to feed myself every time I start feeling stressed or anxious. That has got to become old behavior. But it won't until I have something to substitute for it. Something positive and healthy.

These last 9 days have set me back as far as the eating goes. It's really hard for me to say 'no' to junk when we always seem to be stopping at the convenience store. It has been hard for me to stay in a routine also because every day brings something different. I need to get back to getting up early, going for a walk, eating breakfast, taking a shower, doing stuff around the house (laundry, dishes, cleaning) and taking my nap. I'm days behind on YNAB so I need to get that caught up too. And there's lots of mail sitting around that needs to be taken care of. That will only take a few minutes so I can get that done in the morning also. Getting into a routine is important for me. If I don't have a routine then I won't get done the things that I want to do each day, especially walking. But things will be back to 'normal' Monday when David goes back to work so I can get back into a routine.

I'm glad that when I wake up in the middle of the night that I'm not hungry. Lately I've been feeling ill from the junk during the day so I couldn't even think about eating. I'm glad I never made eating during the night a habit. That's one positive.

It's 64 degrees out right now so hopefully I'll be able to get up early and take advantage of the cool weather for a walk. I'm getting tired so I think I'll head back to bed.