I dropped Bayou off at doggie daycare and fully intended to go home and go back to bed until Maria (the cleaning lady) came at 11am. Thankfully I looked at my agenda for the day and realized it was Monday and I have a 9:30am WW meeting scheduled. In that moment I had to decide whether I was going to sleep or go to the meeting. I know that Pat, the meeting leader, always puts me in a good mood with her humor so I decided to go to the meeting. I did lie down for about an hour then I got up and took a shower. I went to the meeting and was glad I went. Besides the good mood, I got to see some people getting awards for losing weight. That always inspires me and gives me hope. One woman reached lifetime today. That was very exciting. She's lost about 55 lbs since October. She really made me feel like losing the weight is possible. She looks fit and healthy now. I'm so glad that people like her continue to attend the meetings. It's gives the rest of us hope to reach our goals.
I'm glad I went to the meeting. It sets the tone for my day. It's always upbeat and funny. I can use that to start off my day especially since I had so much trouble this past weekend. I feel like I am back on track today though. I weighed myself again this morning and I'm at 280.8. I'm hoping I can get to that 20 lbs lost mark but, like Dori says, if it's not my week this week then it will be soon. I really think I have some kind of mental block when it comes to this milestone though. Not sure what it is but I'll think about it. It's going to have to come at some point though because I'm not giving up.
I still haven't gone for a walk or for a dip in the pool. I have to look for those swim trunks and try them on to see if they fit. I'm sure they will. It's a little cool today for the pool (only 64 degrees) but it's suppose to be in the 80's the rest of the week. I keep forgetting to call about the pool hours so I just did. It opens at 7:30am!! Wow that's early. I don't think I'd go over that early but now I know I can go over around 9 or 10am and swim or walk. Maybe even 8am to get it out of the way. I'll have to see how that goes. I've got to get some exercise in though. That can only help me to lose weight.
I've got to start doing something different for lunch. I've been having a ham and cheese sandwich on sandwich thins breads along with some chips. I try to have a piece of fruit with lunch too. I'm not bored with it but I'm thinking that I should do veggies instead of chips. It's hard for me to go without the chips though. I'm kind of addicted to them (it's the salt). I know the sodium isn't good for me and makes me retain fluids. I think that's why I'm not losing weight this week - too much sodium in all the junk food I've been eating. There's sodium in the ham too. The cheese may have sodium too for all I know. Maybe I could just add the veggies for now and slowly phase out the chips. I don't want to just go cold turkey on the chips. Then I'd be craving them all the time. Like everything else, I'll see how it goes. lol
I got the latest WW magazine in the mail. I'll look through it later. There's an article on breaking out of the breakfast rut. I eat the same thing for breakfast every day too so that might help. There are also 42 recipes in this issue. I look forward to the success stories more than anything though. They are usually big transformations. Just like the people in the meeting today, the success stories give me hope and encouragement. I know I can do this if I just put my mind to it. I have to stop letting emotions sidetrack me. I can't eat every time I'm bored. If I do I'll end up gaining back all the weight I've lost. I don't want that to happen so I need to get on the ball and work this plan.
The WW plan is simple (eat within your daily points target and move more) but it's not easy. If just knowing the right thing to do was the answer I'd be thin by now. But it's not just knowing. It's the doing. It's changing your lifestyle and making food less of a priority than it currently is. It's also about dealing with your emotions straight on instead of eating to get rid of them. All that does anyway is stuff them down. It doesn't really get rid of them. They are there lurking in the background just waiting to get you when you least expect it. Like what happened to me this past weekend. I was upset about not being at the kid's graduation and felt bad (like I'd failed) and so I ate. A lot. A whole lot. I used all but 15 of my weekly points and I hadn't done that since I've been back on WW. I know it's okay to use my weekly points (that's why they are there) but without exercise I'm just going to gain weight. I didn't need to eat fast food last night. It is really making getting to my milestone difficult.
So I have a lot to think about. I have to learn how to deal with my feelings in a way that doesn't involve food. I'll talk to Alicia about that on Wednesday. I'm looking forward to weigh in on Wednesday even if I've gained. It will be a good benchmark for me to see how I do with using my weekly points. I don't think I'll use up the 15 points that are left but they are there if I need them.
That's about it for now. More later.
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