Morning walk 6/13

First let me say that we went to Evan's graduation party last night and we had a great time. I don't know why I have such a difficult time thinking about going places. I stress out about it so much and then when I get there I always have a good time. It was great to see Evan and enjoy the company of everyone else. Lisa and I planned on going for a walk this morning. I need that nudge to go. I'm hoping to get out there on Monday, Wednesday and Friday each week. Bayou is in daycare those days. I need to get out there by 8am though so I can make my 9:30am Monday and 10:00am Friday WW meetings. I'd have to have time to come home and shower before the meetings. I'll try it and see if I can do it. I need to get out and walk.

So this morning we did the 1/2 mile loop and I was feeling pretty good so we tried to do it again. We made it half way and then walked back. But if I'm right that means we did a mile (half a mile plus a quarter of a mile plus a quarter of a mile back). That's pretty good. I am excited that I walked that much. I'm so grateful that Lisa comes out and walks with me. Having a reason to get there is helpful. The pace is pretty slow but at least I'm out there doing it. I feel like I accomplished something today. I walked instead of coming home and sleeping. Yay for me!

I weighed myself this morning after my walk and I weighed exactly 278.4. That's what I need to weigh to be at the 20 lbs lost mark. I don't know if that's what will show on the scale when I weigh in at WW tonight though. I'm going to try to drink more water today to help keep it there. I really would like to make that milestone. I'll be bummed if I'm off by .1 or .2. It is what it is though. I'm kind of shocked that I'm even this close after the week that I've had. I did stay within my points though so maybe that was enough to help me to get to 278.4. I just hope I can maintain that until I weigh in this evening. I'll be anxious all day thinking about getting to my meeting.

I read someone's blog on the WW site that really helped me today. She's having a lot of the same problems that I'm having with this weight loss journey - losing slower than I want to, being depressed and having to take medicine for it, reading about the journey that others are on and comparing myself to them and always coming out on the short end of the stick. There are so many people who are exercising like crazy and losing weight. I'm just not that girl at this point. I don't know that I ever will be. This journey will never be easy for me but it won't be as hard later as it is now either. I was somehow encouraged by her post. It is nice to know that I'm not the only one who struggles with all these issues. Misery does love company. lol

It's not my imagination -  my clothes are fitting looser. I have to keep hiking up my pants and can feel that they are looser around my waist. So I may not be losing weight like I want to but it is showing up in how my clothes are fitting. I'm pretty excited about that. I wore my "big" jeans last night to the party and they were indeed big on me. I need to try the other jeans that I have, the ones that were just a bit too tight and see how they feel now. Hopefully they will fit me better. If not I'll just have to keep wearing the "big" jeans. My stretchy pants are big too. I don't have drawstrings on them so at some point I'll just have to stop wearing them and get new ones. I like my stretchy pants for now. Once I've seriously dropped some weight I might be more comfortable in fitted clothes but for now the stretchy clothes are fine.

Time for my morning nap. I just took my morning meds a little bit ago and they are starting to kick in. I'll take a shower after my nap. I have dishes and laundry to do today and I have a couple of errands to run too. I'll do all that later. For now, it's nap time.