Slept off and on all day

For some reason I was really tired today so I slept off and on all day on the couch. I had to get up a lot to let Bayou in and out. Thankfully some of the time she slept so I could actually fall asleep. It's 2pm now and I'm up for the rest of the day. I did manage to have breakfast and lunch. I'm not sure what I'm going to do for dinner. I'm not really that hungry. I might see if I can just make brats for David. I had lunch late and don't really need anything. I can always have an english muffin if I get hungry. Oh yeah, we're supposed to go over to the Danforth's tonight for Evan's graduation party. We can't forget to do that. We have a card to drop off with $25 in it. I don't want to stay though because I'm not up to it today. I don't really want to go to a party. Today must be a down day for me. I guess that's why I slept all day.

I weighed myself this morning and I clocked in at 281.2. Wow! That's a lot more than I though I would weigh. Oh well, I'll just have more work to do to lose it again. I feel like it I don't take this seriously that I should just quit but I'm not going to do that. Having a bad week doesn't mean I have to quit. I just have to get back on plan from this point on. I ate the wrong things this past week. That's the simple truth. I did stay within my points but made bad choices on what I used those points for. I can't eat junk food and fast food and expect to lose weight.

I feel so blah today that I don't even feel like blogging. I feel like I don't have anything to contribute. I know that's not true, it just feels that way. All I want to do is to go back to sleep.

I hope tomorrow is a better day. I have to drop Bayou off at daycare, go to my appointment with Alicia, pick up Bayou in the afternoon and then go to my WW meeting in the evening. Right now that feels like a lot but I should have plenty of time between things to relax if I need to. David has golf tomorrow after work so Bayou will be in her kennel when I go to my meeting and weigh in. It won't be that long so she'll be okay.

I thought that I was really going to do well this week with my weight loss and instead ended up doing the complete opposite by gaining back weight that I had lost. So disappointing. And I was so close to my milestone too. Sheesh. So close. Oh well. I'm back on track now and will hopefully lose the weight by next Wednesday. One thing that's not helping is that I'm not drinking any water. I know my body is holding onto fluids because I'm not drinking any. I've got to figure out a way to change that. I need to drink 3 bottles of water a day. Right now I'm lucky if I drink half a bottle a day. I'll drink a whole soda but not water. All the sugar and carbonation aren't helping me lose weight. It's helping me to gain. I'm sure that's another reason why I feel like I'm dragging - no fluids to give me some energy. I've got to stop depriving myself of water. It's not healthy.

Why do I make so many bad choices? Why can't I see what these bad choices are doing to me? I mean, I see the aftermath but I can't seem to figure it out as it's going on. If I eat fast food I'm going to gain weight. I can't get away with doing that yet I continue to eat fast food. Which reminds me that I need to have a plan for tomorrow for dinner after my meeting or I'll end up getting fast food again. Now I'm feeling overwhelmed. I just need to have a plan and I don't right now. This is when it's hard to not eat a snack. I'm planning on having an ice cream sandwich (Skinny Cow) to help with the anxiety I'm feeling. It's not a good choice but I don't know what else to do. All I need to do to lose weight is to follow the WW plan and I can't even do that. I'm so disappointed right now.

I'm going to stop blogging because I'm getting upset. I'll blog again later.