It was the best of times, it was the worst of times...

Today is WI day and I'm down another 1.0 lb!! I didn't expect that because I ate out twice this weekend and one of the new medications I'm on makes me retain fluids. I did watch what I was eating though and tracking and staying on plan has paid off yet again. I was so excited about having a loss this week. That was the best of times today.


Unfortunately there was bad news today too. My WW's leader, Karen, who I have come to totally respect and count on is retiring and her last day is Friday. This Friday. I got tears in my eyes (along with a lot of other people there) and almost fell apart when she announced that Friday would be her last day. My heart sunk. I could feel this empty pit in my stomach. I really felt devastated because she's been such a big help to me. I thought I would just leave at the end of the meeting and go home forsaking my treadmill workout but instead I thought about what I would do if this were food and I decided to make a different choice.


After the meeting I went up to Karen and she told me that she was very worried about me because of this announcement and because I had written her a very nice, long thank you letter a few weeks ago. She knew I would be devastated and I am. However, I gave her a hug and told her that I would continue on with the work ahead of me with WW's and I would make her proud. I told her I had already learned a lot from her and was grateful for the time that she was my leader. She will be back in January, as a member, so it's not like I'll never see her again but I will certainly miss her as a leader.


I could have made the choice to go out to eat afterward to "drown" my sorrows or stop at the 7-Eleven for a doughnut (and break my 7 week streak of not buying junk at convenience stores or going out for fast food) but instead I decided to do what I had scheduled and I went to the Y and worked out for 45 minutes on the treadmill. It was a class and we did little drills with some incline and some speed. I actually made it through the whole class!! It was hard to be super excited because I thought about Karen retiring but I decided once again that life goes on and I have to go on with it. So I allowed myself to feel the achievement and be glad that my knee held up and the pain that I'm having is minimal and should respond to the Lidoderm pain patch.


So, down a pound, yay, 45 minutes on the treadmill, yay, and my favorite WW's leader is retiring, boo!! I am allowing myself to feel all of these feelings and not eat to take them away.


I hope everyone is having a tremendous day today no matter what life brings.


(picture is of my WW's leader, Karen)