I do my TV interview in Denver in 5 hours. I'm so nervous that I feel slightly ill. Part of the nervousness is about driving up there. My therapist is going to be taking me up there and back. She's doing it for moral support and because of my knee I can't drive over an hour so I wouldn't have been able to go if she didn't take me. My best friend couldn't go with me because she is scheduled to leave for Chicago after teaching this morning and David couldn't take the time off. I'd rather have Alicia take me anyway so we can talk on the way there and back. Kind of do a briefing and debriefing, if you will.
I usually don't do well with other people driving me places either. I have PTSD from a 1993 car accident and I sometimes get a bit nervous when I'm a passenger (like I was in the accident) but I'm going to do my best today to hold it all together and that means not eating to quell the emotions. I already had my regular breakfast (Kashi GoLean Crunch with a banana and skim milk) and will bring a snack or two for the trip up and back.
I'm listening to some classical music right now but it's a bit frenetic so I'll listen to iTunes instead, Bach Variations by various artists. I did get a good nights sleep last night but some allergy medicine I took this morning is making me feel sleepy and I don't really want to feel sleepy right now. I already straightened out the kitchen for the cleaning lady today (put the dishes in the dishwasher and cleared off the counters). All I have left to do is take a shower and get dressed, then take Bayou to daycare and then meet Alicia at 8:15am for the drive up to Denver.
Please say a prayer for me or send positive thoughts my way this morning as I deal with this anxiety. Thanks in advance.
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