Having a good day

David left at about 9:15am for golf up in Denver with his brother and some friends. I have no idea what time he'll be home. I've been napping a lot today just because I can. Bayou has been good today (meaning she's not going in and out every 10 minutes) so I've been able to relax. Now I'm getting some things done around here though. I unloaded the dishwasher and then loaded the few dirty dishes that were there. I have the sheets washing and just emptied the dryer. I still have to hang up shirts (my most dreaded task of them all). I'm getting some Activity Points (AP's) for doing the housework so I'm not totally opposed to doing it. I've decided to put off grocery shopping until tomorrow (Monday) since I'll already be up and out dropping off Bayou at daycare. If I get her there early enough I'll be able to shop before I go to my Monday WW meeting at 9:30am. I have at least one load of laundry to do but I'm not sure if I'll do it today or tomorrow.

I had my usual breakfast today (1/2 cup of Kashi GoLean Crunch cereal, 1/2 cup of fat free milk and a banana). For lunch I had 1 chicken enchilada, 28g of chips, a WW lemon mini bar and an apple. I'm full and won't eat again until dinner time. I don't know what I'll have for dinner. I'll probably have a ham and cheese sandwich. I should make a salad too but I seem to have difficulty doing that. I don't love salad and therefore don't feel like making one. Sometimes I think I need to do it anyway but if it's not something I can do long term then there's no sense in making myself do it now. I need to do things that I can carry forward long term.

I got a lot of good responses to my blog on WW asking for people to tell me what made the difference for them in losing weight. I wanted to know how their mindset changed. Here are some of the responses I got:

I think you are doing great. I can't even focus on 5 lbs at a time, it's more like one bite at a time. My great-grandma used to say, "Take care of the pennies and the dollars will take care of themselves." I can translate that to WW by saying that if I make good decisions and follow the plan as best I can, and focus on that instead of the scale, I will lose weight. And that is what has happened in my experience.

The two decisions I made early that seemed to really make a difference were that I was only doing this for me & I wasn't going to make drastic changes in my life. I knew that my husband wasn't going to change the way he ate, so I had to learn healthy versions on the same meals we had always eaten. Also, I knew that I am not going to be a person that exercises for a hour every day. So I have tried to integrate exercise into my day instead.


the first part is done- you have made a decision & have a plan!...small steps....remember, your body doesn't care if you show a loss at scsles weekly...just know it WILL work...you are OP & on your way!!after all, what is the alternative?.....no way, no how - no going back! onward & downward! 

I didn't know if I could really do this when I started either. But I just kept plugging away at it-being OP, getting GHGs and avoiding the trigger foods. The biggest difference for me is planning meals and how I will get in GHGs. I really try not to use my DPs on 'junk food'. And I decided I was worth the effort which was probably the most important thing. I was the only one holding myself back from being successful. 


I think my mindset changed after I lost like 10-15 pounds and really started to see and feel a difference. One weigh day at a time. You're doing everything right from what I read here but are you telling yourself 'no' to the bad foods? Or are you eating them and just counting them. For me, it was a total NO. I didn't go back to a small indulgence until I was well under way with my weight loss. 

I felt bad all the time. When I laid down at night, I felt like I couldn't breathe. My back and knees and hips hurt. That's what I focus on, even today...50 pounds lighter. I realized that I could not continue to live the way I was....the high blood pressure alone was killing me. From about the mid point of my weight loss I started realizing the I no longer hurt, and I felt good every day. Please hang in there and keep moving forward! 


You have to want it more than anything else, believe in yourself and know you are worth it. Don't do it for anyone else. My mind changed the day I woke up and decided I didn't want to live my life hiding. I wanted to enjoy it. I was worth it. I slipped and slide and fall but got some good shoes and balance and got to losing. I lost 120 lbs. most of that was since i was 51. ONE pound at a time. 

i am losing very slowly. You have to believe that you are worth it. My daughter asked me to look in the mirror everyday, and say, "You __________ are beautiful, I love you and I want you to be healthy." It was hard to do at first, but you need to do it everyday. Do it preferably in front of a large mirror. We are worth it. I don't think about my goal, but about my journey. I would like to share journey. We can do this.


All of these responses were very helpful. I realize that it's a mental thing more than anything. Physically I know I'm capable of doing it but mentally I've talked myself into thinking that this is the way I'll be the rest of my life. I have to really believe that I'm worth it. I also have to be honest with myself and stop playing games. Hiding what I eat isn't going to help me. I'm thinking of listing everything I eat in my blog each day so I'm accountable for what I am eating. If I have to shed light on what I'm putting in my mouth every day then maybe I'll think twice about it before I do it.


I've done pretty good with not eating candy, cookies, cake and drinking soda. My next challenge is not eating chips every day. Not only do I not need the fat and grease, I don't need the sodium. I didn't have chips on the grocery list but bought them anyway. Not good. I need to follow the list. It's not that I can't have chips once in while or even with lunch each day but I'm snacking on them too which isn't helping. I'm tracking them and counting the points but it's just not the healthiest choice I can make. WW suggests substituting popcorn for chips (94% fat free popcorn). I don't know if I'll get the craving met with popcorn but I'm willing to try. I just need the crunch and some salt. I don't think the popcorn is salt free. I have to make some changes or I'm not going to lose weight.


I'm worried again that this week I'm not going to lose any weight. Eating all the french fries yesterday didn't help my cause any. At least I didn't bring the leftover french fries home. I don't mind eating an enchilada for lunch because it's packed with chicken but I counted it as  1 1/2 because of the cheese. They have lots of cheese. I'm going to try and limit restaurant visits to special occasions. I can't go out to eat just for the heck of it. Whatever happens Wednesday at WI will happen. I have to let it motivate me no matter what happens. I can't give up.


I'm so miserable being this heavy. My knee aches, my back hurts, even my arms hurt. I have to lose the weight so I am not so miserable physically. Mentally I'm not feeling good either. I know people stare at me because I'm so fat. I worry about sitting on furniture that doesn't look sturdy enough. Sometimes I know I'm not going to "fit" into a chair and that I'll hang over the sides (like at the WW meetings). I just want to fit into a chair (movie theater, airplane, WW, etc.) and not be embarrassed that I don't.


I have my motivation picture hanging right across from my chair. I keep looking at it and seeing just how big I've gotten. My stomach is bigger than it has ever been. I know I'll be more excited about the weight loss journey when I can see and feel the difference. Right now I don't see or feel any difference even though I have lost 6 lbs. or so in the last 3 weeks. I think it's going to take another 15-20 pounds before I see a change.


I think I'll go put a load of laundry in the washer. Being active, even in just little amounts, will make a difference. It's worth doing. That's it for now.