Sometimes I wonder if I could be as dedicated as some people are in WW. I see people online and in the meetings who have lost a lot of weight and they are working out now and I wonder if I can be that kind of person. I know that when I do start working out it gets addictive and I like doing it but getting going is so hard when I'm this overweight. I keep thinking about checking to see if there is a treadmill in the exercise room at the clubhouse but I haven't checked yet. Maybe I'll do it tomorrow. I'll have time before my meeting to stop and check on that. All I have to do is commit to checking not to working out. I can at least do that much so I'll know if there is one available or not. Okay, I'll commit to doing this tomorrow. I'll check on it. That will be my first baby step on the road to working out. I want to do other things but I know I'm not in shape to do much beside walking right now. And that's okay. From what I read on other people's blogs and from what other members say is that as they lost weight their activity level increased. I've only lost 5 lbs. so far so I can't expect my activity level to change overnight. If I can remember I'll wear my pedometer tomorrow so I'll know how many steps I'm walking. Just going to and from the door letting Bayou out should give me some. LOL She'll be in daycare tomorrow but I'll be going to my meeting and going to the store. That will give me some steps.
If I don't lose any weight this week I will know it's because I'm not meeting my GHG's each day. I'm definitely not drinking enough fluids and I'm not getting my fruits and veggies or dairy in either. I have to focus more on that. At least I know enough to not drink Hawaiian Punch or OJ. That only makes me gain weight. It's not a good drink for me. I need to stick with tea and water. I will try to start drinking the tea tomorrow too. I'll commit to drinking one bottle of water tomorrow and 2 cups of tea. That's more than I'm drinking now so that will be an improvement. Anything I can do to get my GHG's in will be a good thing. I'm trying to drink a bottle of water tonight. That's mean I'll be up during the night to go to the bathroom but I need to get some fluids in me. I can go a whole day without drinking anything and that's not good for me.
So I can learn from others or compare myself to others. Learning is the better thing. I can't compare my journey to the journey of anyone else because even though we all have weight to lose we all come from different paths and have to walk this out on our own too. We can get support and encouragement but in the end we walk this journey own our own sweat and effort. No one can do this for me. I have to do this for myself. I have to really want this or it won't happen. I can see someone doing tons of exercise and losing 130 pounds but that's where they are. I'm not there yet on my journey. Just making a commitment to checking out the clubhouse is a big deal. Committing to drinking more fluids for me is a really big deal. Other people struggle with other things or maybe the same things but we are all on our own path. I have to keep that in mind and let people encourage and motivate me but know that in the end it's coming from inside me.
I guess what I'm saying is that I'm scared that I will fail and not lose the weight. If I look at the big picture it scares me so I need to just look at it 5 lbs. at a time. I can lose 5 lbs. That much I can do.
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