Up in the middle of the night

It's almost 12:30am. I went to bed a while ago but Bayou woke me up so she could go out. Now she's in there lying on my pillow and I'm out here on the laptop. Something is wrong with this picture. How come she always wins the pillow? Once she lays there it's like moving a dead horse. It's almost impossible to claim your space back. LOL I'll get her to move when I seriously want to go back to bed.

I'm kind of amazed this time around with the WW plan that I'm not having "super cravings" for donuts and cherry coke or orange crush. Sometimes I think about it but I don't have that feeling in the middle of my stomach that I've had before. It's like have an anxiety stomach ache. In the 4 months that I wasn't on WW I think I got my fill of donuts and soda. It's not that I wouldn't like some every once in a while but not all the time. It would ruin my intention to not be fat anymore. Even just having talked about it used to make me feel crazy. Not today. I think it's because getting healthier means more to me than a bottle of soda does.

I've only written this much in an hours time because I keep falling asleep. haha

I just had a Lemon Mousse Pie mini bar (made by WW). I love them when they are cold out of the fridge. I might have another one. They are only 2 points each. They are small but are satisfying. It's a good snack.

I've been thinking off and on about making friends with people at the WW meeting. I'd like to get to know people who have lost a lot of weight. I'd like to hear their stories and their struggles and what to expect. That would be helpful to me. I know someone in the Friday, 10am meeting who has lost almost 100 pounds. I'd like to get to know her. Dori has also lost 100 pounds. I'd like to get together with her and talk about her WW journey. I think Christine also lost a huge amount of weight. I remember seeing before and after photos of Christine. Her transformation was amazing. I really would like to have some friends though that I could get together with or call when I needed to talk shop. I prefer it be people who go to meetings and who aren't just online members. Nothing against online members but I'd like to discuss the meeting topic sometimes. I have to just sit closer to these people and start talking to them. I have to make the first step because I know from past experience that I look unapproachable. I separate myself from the group and I don't smile much. That won't get me friends.

It's 2:20am. Fell asleep again. LOL I should have gone back to bed.