Finally Gave In. Oh Well.

I purposely went to the 7-Eleven and got 2 yeast glazed doughnuts, 14 points total. I didn't get a soda because I wasn't really craving one. The doughnuts are history already. I ate them with a fork to make them last longer but they still went pretty quick. I feel satisfied and full now. I want to make myself feel guilty but I'm not going to do that. I have the points to eat 2 doughnuts and now I've taken care of the craving. It wasn't the greatest treat I've ever had but it ran a close 2nd or 3rd. LOL 

I don't like eating for emotional reasons but this has been 2 days of torture that I knew I could "fix" with food, specifically 2 yeast glazed doughnuts. Now I feel calm and relaxed. It's hard to believe that food can have such a significant effect on me.

I ended my "not been to 7-Eleven in weeks" streak but that's okay. I've just start over and be grateful that I've been able to stay out of there for so long. I really was there every day and sometimes twice a day. So I'm making remarkable progress. Next time I will know to just take care of the craving so I'm not overeating everything else until I get what I'm craving. I'm certainly not going to give in to every craving I have but something like this, yes, sure. Sometimes you just have to have what you are craving.

I still have 12 daily points left and 23 WAP's until Wednesday, so I'm really not doing too bad. I just didn't want to give in to the craving but life is good now that I have. I'm glad I don't get like that every day.

Wednesday will be a big day for me. I drop Bayou off around 7:30am, see the ortho doc at 10am, Alicia at 11:30am, pick up Bayou around 3:00-3:30pm and weigh in at 5:30pm. I'm tired already just thinking of it. And it's supposed to be a snowy day so I'm not looking forward to that. My schedule could change dependent on how the roads are that day. I'm going to do my best to get to all my appointments though.

I don't see being able to start hiking next week but maybe the pool might be an option. I ordered a pair of swim trunks on Amazon to wear over my swim suit. My legs are just so big that I don't want them all showing like they would in a swim suit. I may get a swim shirt too so I don't have to wear the swim suit at all . I don't like how flabby my arms look. I'll just have to see what happens at the ortho on Wednesday. I'd love to just back to hiking but the PA didn't think that would happen for a full two weeks which won't be until the 31st. My ortho appointment is the 26th. Getting an MRI would just make me feel so much better and I'm sure Dr. Jinkins will okay that. Just walking around the house hurts. It also hurts when I cross my leg (right on top of left). I get a really sharp pain that makes me jump. That's what makes me think there is a structural problem not just irritation but I could be wrong. Maybe the ITB is catching on something in the outer side of my knee. I have a heat pack on it today. I forgot to put it on yesterday. It definitely makes a difference having it on.

NASCAR is on today so I have something to do while I sit and rest my leg. Beside think of food that is. LOL