I know where I messed up...

I know why I had a 1.4 pound gain this past week. Here's what I think:


* couldn't do any real workouts because of my knee pain but have since been cleared by the doc to go back to hiking


* I am still eating lots of carbs and fats in my meals; I'm making adjustments to that as I go along; I'll be talking to a meeting leader Friday who is going to look over my online tracker print outs and let me know where I need to make changes and what changes to make


* 41, yes 41, of my points for the week were used for drinking Hawaiian Punch Fruit Juice!! That's almost all of my weekly allowance PPV's!! Sheesh!! I had convinced myself that drinking juice was as good as drinking water. I was SO wrong! So I'm off the Hawaiian Punch completely and drinking herbal tea and water. Peeing a lot more but that's the price you pay for healthy drinking I guess. LOL

* I am still giving in to emotional eating, mostly anxiety (can you say - 2 yeast, glazed donuts for breakfast this weekend for 13 points total. Wow!)


I'm so glad that I realized what is going on and have made changes so things go continue to go in a decreasing direction. I had gained over 2 pounds over the weekend and feel grateful to be getting away with a 1.4 lb. gain. I don't know if I even would have noticed these things before tracking but I'm noticing them now and that's a good thing. And not only am I noticing them, but I'm making the changes that need to be made. I'm still struggling with things but I'm trying to figure out ways to get around or through the issues I'm dealing with by using this community, talking to leaders, going to meetings, tracking, sharing with my husband and just being more aware. I'm keeping my eyes open and not letting food or drink just slip into my mouth unnoticed. I track it before I eat it so I have to be accountable for every bite or sip. Works for me.


Today will be my second day of withdrawal from all the sugar in the juice. And I'm sure the red dye in the drink that stains my counter and sink wasn't doing me any favors either. Who knows what effect that was having. Maybe it was contributing to my anxiety. Glad I'm off that stuff.


I've given myself permission to NOT workout (go hiking or to the Y) today. I just got the injection in my knee yesterday and I need to give it a day or so to work before I get out there on it. But I'll be hiking tomorrow (Friday), just a short 15 minute hike, but that's enough for me at this point. My normal hike is about 40-45 minutes but I'm not up for that quite yet. Just getting out there is a major accomplishment for me.


So, all I have scheduled for today is an appointment with my therapist. We are going to start the process of working on my PTSD about driving in weather (snow, fog, heavy rain). She'll be using a technique that she is certified in called EMDR. Should prove to be interesting. The rest of the day I'll be spending with my puppy, Bayou. Now that my knee is better I can get up and down easier and letting her in and out isn't such an issue. No daycare for her today. She'll be back on her regular M/W/F schedule starting tomorrow.


I've gone over my schedule and I've plugged in hiking, treadmill class, Silver Sneakers class, an arthritis pool class, WW meetings and appointments. I'm working everything around Bayou's daycare days so she doesn't spend too much time in her kennel alone at home. She's great in her kennel, I just don't like her being in there too long. She's such a good puppy. Instead of sleeping with us she's sleeping on the couch now in the living room. I miss her at night but it's easier to just let her sleep on the couch than to try to get her to go to bed with us. She's growing up. Wah!


One thing I don't like about all the cooking I'm doing so we can eat healthier is all of the dirty dishes. Yikes! I have to clean up the mess from last night later this morning. I also have to continue the laundry. It never really gets finished so I try not to use that word. LOL