Tougher Day Today

I went to another meeting today. The lady who was speaking yesterday was speaking again today. She remembered me and invited me into the meeting. I could see making friends there if I could loosen up some. I'm not used to being around other people so it's hard to get into the groove of socializing. I know it will come though.


One of the issues I'm having, that I've always had, is that when I'm out I want to stop on the way home and get a snack. Yesterday and today I stopped and got a donut and a soda. I really don't need either but I was able to fit it into the plan but suffered by not eating healthier things today. So, I bought a box of treats from WW that I can have instead but didn't eat one but got the donut (2 in fact!) instead. I know there are going to be harder days and that's okay. I didn't go off the deep end and that's a good thing. And I did stop in to the meeting. I'm going to the 5:30pm meeting tomorrow because it's specifically for people who want to lose 50+ pounds. There should be a different speaker than the 2 I've already heard. If I like that meeting I may go to that one and the Friday one and let the Friday one be the one where I weigh in.


I did eat a big salad for dinner tonight along with a baked potato. I splurged again and had ice cream for a snack. I did limit how much I had. I don't feel like I need to eat the whole pint at one sitting. So, I'm out of points for the day (unless I use some of my 49) but not feeling hungry so I should be okay. I'm going to try to make better choices tomorrow though. If I make healthier choices I get more food which helps me to feel full and to not feel guilty for eating junk. I didn't even drink the whole soda today so I actually can subtract that from my day.


I am tracking everything I eat. I like the tracking part of this program. I'm having difficulty drinking water so I'm not getting my smiley faces on etools there. I have to come up with a game plan for getting myself to drink more water. I keep forgetting to ask for help with that at the meetings. I'll try to do that tomorrow night.


I'm going to head to bed by 9pm tonight because I'm so tired. Shellie (my physician's assistant) called today and said that my triglycerides are not where they need to be so I have to increase my Lipitor by 10mg (30mg total) and my B12 is about 400 and should be between 600-800 so I have to take a Vitamin B12 supplement too. I'm hoping that if eat healthier and can soon start walking again, that my lab values will naturally adjust to normal values. I've gained so much weight that my knees are killing me. Getting up and down is so painful. Thankfully they don't hurt when I'm sitting or walking, though walking is harder with all of this weight. I do want to get back to hiking. I miss doing that. I'd like to be able to take Bayou with me up to Palmer Park to hike with me. I'll have to see about that because she's still a crazy dog around other people and dogs.


Can't stop yawning. Maybe I'll go to bed earlier. I have to wear the O2 sensor on my finger all night tonight to see if my CPAP is set correctly. It will be interesting to see what my O2 is like for the whole night. Another thing I hope that will go away once I lose weight (the CPAP). I've really messed up my health being this heavy. I'm glad I've found the WW program. Better late than never!