Lunch

Lunch was super delicious. I didn't know if peanut butter and jelly would be good on french bread but surprisingly it was great.

The urge to eat, just to eat, is so strong within me. I feel nervous and anxious and I know that food would calm me down. But I'm going to sit with the discomfort and get through it. I think I'm nervous because Marianne is calling me for a phone session. I don't know why I'm freaking out about it. It's not like I've never talked on the phone for an hour (or more) before. I know I'll get through it. I'm just a bundle of nerves right now.

I need to remind myself that food isn't the answer. Even though it does seem to calm me down, it's not the answer. I need to deal with my feelings instead of stuffing them with food. I'm not happy being this overweight. I want to look good and feel good again. With everyones support and help, I know I can do it. My goal is to be in better shape at 50 than I was at 40 (or 30 for that matter).

Time for my call with Marianne. More later.