Food addiction

I found this quote today. I think it's very interesting.

"The physiological and psychological dependency of food can best be broken when the individual recognizes that they are powerless to combat it alone. They must look to God, who alone is able to provide help and healing in this and all areas of human helplessness. “For I am the LORD who heals you" (Exodus 15:26b). God is as much concerned with our physical well being as He is with our spiritual relationship to Him. As an individual seeks Him, he will find health and healing and recovery. “Dear friend, I am praying that all is well with you and that your body is as healthy as I know your soul is” (3 John 2)."

Marianne told me that Dr. Bird describes addiction as:

"A pathological relationship to a mood-altering experience."

That definitely describes my relationship with food. Pathological means excessive or extreme. Food sure does alter my mood. If I'm anxious all I have to do is eat and I feel calm. But it never lasts for long. So then I have to eat again. Finding other ways to alter my mood is important. There are all the DBT skills, the 911 list and other things to do to change the way I feel. Walking is a way to deal with anxiety too. Eating is just punishing myself. That's not what I want to do. I want to be healthy, lose weight and be an active participant in my own life.

Marianne asked if I could have David come to my Thursday session. He said he would be there for the 2nd half of the appointment. I need to get across to him that I am dealing with an addiction and it's difficult for me to not slip when he's asking me to get junk food and drinks. I also want to let him know that I may slip and I need for him to not chastise me in jest or for real. I'd like his support but I would settle for his understanding. I know that at some point I will have junk food. I don't want David making a big deal about it when I do. Saying 'no' to him each time makes me feel guilty. What if he asks and I say 'no' and then I do want something? Will he get mad at me? I can't be worried about that. I just need to do what is right for me.

Tomorrow Lisa and I are going to go over to Palmer Park so she can show me where the trailheads are. That will be fun. I'm looking forward to it.