My mind says 'yes', my body says 'no'

Lunch is done and I've taken my morning meds (quite late). I'm sure the Zanaflex will make my back feel better. I need to remember to get some Extra Strength Tylenol. I found a really neat map of the easy trails at Palmer Park. I may try the 3.1 mile trail tomorrow just to see how I do. That would be like the up and back portion of Waldo Canyon (without as much elevation change). What I really like about Waldo is that you're walking through the trees a lot of the trail. It really makes it an adventure. I almost always see deer up there too. I don't know if there's much wildlife up at Palmer Park (except for rattlesnakes). I'm sure there must be though. The views are spectacular up there and I look forward to poking around on different (easy) trails.

Lunch was good but I should have chosen something healthier. I've got to make the right choices or the weight isn't going to come off. I've decided that I'm not going to weigh myself at home, only at the Dr's office. I'll know how I'm doing by the way I feel, the endurance I build up and the way my clothes fit. That's a more accurate way to determine progress than just looking at numbers on the scale randomly. The numbers always psych me out anyway. If I've lost weight I think about eating more to congratulate myself. If I haven't lost weight, I think about eating more because I'm depressed. No win sitation. So, if I don't look at the numbers then I think I'll do better especially mentally.

My mind and my spirit are wanting to walk more but my body just isn't in shape yet to do that. I'd love to just go up to Waldo and hike but that would do more harm than good at this point. I think I may just stick to the trails at Palmer Park and throw in other trails every once in a while for variety. I'm glad that my mind is wanting to walk more. I was having such a hard time just staying out of bed all day and now I'm up and moving around. I still take an afternoon nap but I feel like I deserve it now because of my higher activity level. Before I was just avoiding life and sleeping the days away. I don't want to do that any more.

It will probably take me until next summer to lose all the weight that I want to lose. It'll take time to build up my endurance with walking and get into better eating habits. I'm ready for the challenge though.